GREETINGS AND WELCOME!
My name is Billy Holland and we are so glad to have you as our guest. As an independent Christian ministry located in Central Kentucky, I’m an ordained independent minister, Christian author, songwriter, and a certified community chaplain devoted to serving Jesus Christ and all people. We hope you will visit us often as we update several areas of this site each week! For all you animal lovers out there, this is Teddy Roosevelt, our adorable English bulldog and as you can see, he has a face that only a mother could love – ha! He is a sweetie, with such a loving personality and is the best snuggle-buddy ever. He loves to play with his toys and of course, he’s always ready to sample whatever we are eating – a true food hound! I’ve never seen any type of food he did not think was delicious…
This week, Teddy is getting used to his brand new air bed we bought him, but still does not understand why we would rather him not to lay on our new couches. He has a tendency to be stubborn, but for the most part, is obedient and wants to please us. Here we see him intently watching a seal or a sea lion and he seems to be very interested. I’ve often wondered if animals can see television, but it sure appears to be so. For those of you who have dogs, we would love to see a photo of your furry friend and hear about your stories. I would be glad to post pictures and introduce your pets here on my site. Just send them to my email and we can let the world see them. I post different photos of Teddy every so often so keep watching.
Our site features original music, information about what we believe, our volunteer outreaches along with much of my writing ministry. My wife Cheryl and I invite you to look around, read the articles, listen to the music, and you are welcome to copy them, give them away, and use them however the Lord leads. I just finished a brand new article about physical healing called, “THY FAITH HAS MADE THEE WHOLE.” You can read and or copy it in the “SHORT STORY” section at the top.
I would be interested in knowing your thoughts or questions you might have about God, the holy scriptures, doctrines, or anything on this site. I would also love to hear about your ministry and develop a new friendship with you. Each week, you can stay current with my newspaper columns which are published around the country and posted every Monday on this site. Click on the above menu, “LIVING ON PURPOSE” as each post is titled and dated. I also send out a separate article each week about the Christian life every Saturday and they are found at, yes you guessed it, “WEEKLY BLOG.” Also, If you would like to have a free copy of the narrated scripture CD, “KEEPER OF MY SOUL” just email me at firstname.lastname@example.org (Don’t forget to include your mailing address).
BRAND NEW BOOK!
Our new resource is heading to the press next week and will be available soon. We are very excited about this book and believe it will be a blessing to all who are interested in knowing more about God and the Christian life. I created this cover, but the publisher may come up with something better, so as soon as I receive it I will post it here. It will be available with Amazon and Barnes and Noble and as an e-book. I believe this is an important resource of strength, hope, and edification to the body of Christ in a day and age where there are so much spiritual darkness and negativity. The idea of anyone and everyone having the opportunity to walk as close with God as they want and the privilege to know His will for their life is a spiritual reality. This book would be a wonderful gift for those you know who would appreciate an uplifting read about everyday life from a positive Christian perspective. If you would like to place an order, just email me and I would be glad to send you a copy. There is also a discount if you order both of my books together. Here are some comments from those who have read the manuscript for “Convictions and Considerations – Encouraging Stories for the Soul.”
“In Convictions and Considerations, Dr. Holland seamlessly intersperses guidelines for living a responsible Christian life, illustrative quotations to validate his arguments, and personal anecdotes and lyrics that add a real-life perspective to his greater points. The result is an engaging, eclectic book that allows readers to determine ways to evaluate their individual spiritual paths.” Daniel Aken, M.LIS., Reference Librarian, Clark County Public Library, Winchester Kentucky.
“If there is one eternal theme for Reverend Holland’s writings, it is love, and it shines through in great abundance in “Convictions And Considerations” making the book a joy to read whatever your spiritual inclination. Billy writes in blockbuster style, keeping us fascinated with a new story or observation with each turn of the page, and effortlessly conveying his understanding of God’s Word in an easy-to-read style that deftly and almost surreptitiously uplifts his readers with a joyous appreciation of the practical link between earthly humanity and heavenly grace. It is a true privilege to publish his “Living On Purpose” column each Sunday and this book takes the exceptional quality of that work to yet new heights.” Ian White, Editor/Publisher, clearleadernews.com, Galveston Texas.
“I highly recommend this book to both believers and unbelievers alike. It’s a reservoir of edification and inspiration for the believer to draw closer to God and a lighthouse of conviction for the unbeliever to see their need to be born-again. Within these pages, Dr. Holland helps us identify, pursue, and accomplish our divine mission. William is sincerely concerned about the enormous challenges we will face as followers of Jesus Christ, but reassures us that we can be victorious by developing a greater sensitivity to the Holy Spirit.” Lucas Ngwa, Pastor of Salvation Ministry Church, Bamenda, Cameroon.
Check out this NEW video by MARK DUNCAN! I believe you will really enjoy this. He has this same video in several different languages on YouTube. I encourage you to take a few minutes of your time, sit back and relax, and allow this presentation to bless your spirit. At this time of year when everyone is busy and distracted by holiday stress, it’s essential that we stay focused on Jesus EVERY DAY and continue drawing closer to Him EVERY MOMENT. I’m so thankful that Christ was born and truly grateful that He died on the cross for us. God loves us so much that we can never worship or praise Him enough. Words cannot express how much we love and adore Him. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCYuBetG3KQ
Here is another amazing video that I wanted to share with you. Stewart Loy is highly anointed in this presentation. Lion of Judah Ministries – Very powerful!
In May, we had 452 views with online visitors from 28 different countries! This includes places like Hong Kong, Pakistan, the United Arab Emirates, Kenya, Germany, Australia, the Netherlands, Singapore, South Korea, and Zimbabwe to only mention a few. THANK YOU so much to everyone from around the world who visits this site! We are meeting people from around the globe and it’s very exciting to make new friends. Whatever you need – Jesus Christ can provide! As the song says, “He is a pain taker, a chain breaker, and a prison shaking Savior!” JESUS is your healer, your deliverer, provider, the answer to all your questions and the solution to all of your problems! He willingly went to the cross and shed His blood because HE LOVES YOU and right this moment, He desires to redeem, restore, and transform whosoever will believe in Him. Feel free to contact us as we consider it an honor to connect with you and are available to pray, counsel, or help any way we can. Here is our link again, email@example.com
This is a picture of a recent gospel showcase I had the privilege to be a part of. A great night of music that included 12 different groups and soloist and 500 people were there. An offering was taken and we had a silent auction that raised nearly $4000.00 to help with the construction of a new park for handicapped children. A great night of praising the Lord and to help with a good cause. And yes, I did shave my beard…
“Two things define us; Our patience when we have nothing, and our attitude when we have everything.”
“A successful person will always choose to lay a beautiful pathway with the bricks that others throw at them.”
“Go out into the world in peace, have courage in the faith of God, Love and serve the Lord, speak the truth, be positive and think on what is good and lovely, return no one evil for evil, strengthen the fainthearted, encourage the weak and help the suffering, honor and respect God’s creation. May the mercy and grace of the Almighty surround you and may you be filled with contentment and rivers of joy. Our heavenly Father is the meaning and purpose of life, and I pray that you will live in His presence forever.”
“Before we can embrace the cross as the only way to save us, we must humbly acknowledge that we were the reason he had to go there.”
“Every word of God is pure: He is a shield unto them that put their trust in Him” Proverbs 30:5.
CONSIDERATION: Building a ladder to your dreams – 5/18/19
There are certain spiritual laws similar to the natural law of gravity that may be difficult to understand yet they are true and important keys to victorious living. The power of words fall under this category and are an excellent addition of knowledge and wisdom to our spiritual life. We can learn that words are much more than simple communication and when spoken in accordance with God’s desires they actually carry the power to motivate, inspire, and change circumstances. Even though the name it and claim it movement distorted this principle somewhat, there remains the fundamental revelation that becoming a light of optimism and faith is associated with training our mind to think positively. No matter what type of situation we might face, we do not have to surrender to a critical or defeated attitude. We constantly have the choice to be a refreshing fountain of encouragement, strength, and hope, or we can be a critical septic tank of doubt, depression, and despair.
The reason why God wants to change the way we think and speak is that He wants to change who we are. More than anyone else, He knows about the power of words because according to the Genesis account of creation, He created the heavens and the earth by literally speaking them into existence. For example, when someone declares they will always be poor, or the situation is impossible, we have just witnessed an agreement that has now been set in motion to be accomplished. Matthew chapter eighteen explains that if two or more shall agree, they will receive from the Lord and Isaiah chapter fifty-seven talks about God creating the fruit of our lips. This spiritual law of positive and negative confession is found throughout the Bible and can produce blessings or curses. Many will consider this lifestyle as childishly naive, but the spiritual principle of sowing and reaping is a spiritual reality.
The stories in the Bible are not just tales of giants, whales, and fiery furnaces, they are graciously given to us as lessons that we might learn and incorporate spiritual understanding into our lives. By the way, there is more to being a Christian than going around telling everyone we are one. The goal is for people to notice how we act and observe Christ in us, and may we be reminded they are especially listening to every word we say. When it comes to words, James chapter three talks about how small the tongue is and yet it has the ability to defile a person and those around them if not controlled. The taming of the tongue must come from an internal awareness and conviction because the mouth speaks what the heart entertains and reveals the true identity of the person. When we accept Christ as our Lord and Savior, the transformation process continues by asking God to take control of our life and this begins with allowing Him to change and renew our mind. Kenneth E. Hagan is quoted as saying, “Our confessions will either imprison us or set us free. Our confession is the result of our believing and our believing is the result of our right or wrong thinking.”
There is a true account about a young boy growing up Cleveland in a home to which he later described as materially poor but spiritually rich. One day a famous track and field athlete named Charlie Paddock came to his school to speak to the student body. At the time, Mr. Paddock was considered the fastest human being alive. His audience was captivated as he told the children to develop a vision of what they wanted to be and then to ask God to help them accomplish their goals. This little boy decided that he too wanted to become the fastest runner on earth so he went to his track coach and told him about his dream and the coach replied, “It’s great to have a dream, but to attain your dream you must build a ladder to it. The first step is determination, the second is dedication, the third is discipline, and the fourth rung is a positive attitude!” The result of positive thinking and confessing was four gold medals, breaking the Olympic and world records for the 200 meter, and holding the broad jump record for 24 years. And who did this little boy grow up to be? Jesse Owens.
Before you go to the menu and start browsing, I want to mention a special offer. This is our first book and it’s a collection of Theological insights about our intimate relationship with Jesus along with my experiences of leading congregational worship and singing my original music through the years. It’s a whopping 50 chapters and 367 pages and I’m very grateful for this opportunity to be one of the Lord’s messengers. I have purchased some extra copies of the book and while supplies last, I can send them anywhere in the U.S. for $12.50 each. This is a significant discount compared to ordering online or through a bookstore. I give all of my resources away and would love to be able to give everyone a copy of this book, but unfortunately, my cost is over $8.00 each and shipping is over $3.00. I have given several boxes of these away to those who cannot afford it, but this book is very costly to publish and print. I just want to make it affordable because I know what a blessing this will be for those who read it. The question is presented throughout this work: “How many want to have more spiritual intimacy with Jesus by developing an awareness of His presence?” You can click on the book menu at the top to find out additional information, but I just want to say this resource is for those who have a sincere desire to go beyond a normal and traditional religious ritual. When we make the decision to include God in our thoughts and plans, we move from a knowledge-based lifestyle into a spiritual awakening. There is only room for one king on the throne of our heart and each moment our free will has the choice to serve Jesus or our flesh. We must go beyond just knowing “about” God – we must evolve into personally knowing God or we will miss the meaning and purpose of our existence.
This would also make a wonderful gift for someone you know who is a seeker of spiritual truth and with every copy, I will include my brand new scripture narration CD, “KEEPER OF MY SOUL” for free. If you would like to place an order, we have added an instant purchase button connected with PayPal. This is a simple way to make a secure transaction at a much-reduced price. If you would rather go through Amazon or Barnes and Noble you can click on the BOOK tab at the top and it will provide the links to these distributors. This section will also explain details about the content of the book and you will see where I have actually posted a couple of chapters for you to read. Those who have read it, are commenting on how this work is an in-depth and thought-provoking collection of topics which presents a sobering challenge to our faith. I look forward to hearing what you think about it and what the Lord is revealing to you.
Book – 367 pages
“A LIFESTYLE OF WORSHIP – Living in the awareness of God’s presence”
I received an email the other day from a website ministry saying they were going to post an excerpt from one of my recent newspaper columns. To say the least, I am very honored to be listed with some very special individuals. However, if I have ever said anything that has eternal value, it was first given to me by God. The idea of being a usable Christian is for us to become a willing container where the Lord can fill us and then pour out through us. It’s His water and He’s in charge of the pouring.
There are so many people in the world today who are stepping forward to voice their opinion about what they believe. Are God’s people not allowed to do the same? I realize that much of our faith needs to be demonstrated by how we live, but isn’t there also a time to testify and preach God’s message of hope and salvation? Is it not our responsibility to relay the gospel to a lost and dying world? Have we as Christians not been commissioned to teach God’s life-changing promises so that minds and souls can be delivered from sin and deception? When we read the true accounts of the martyrs who have given their lives for the sake of Jesus, we must consider that we are not excused from the same accountability and commitment. Let us pray that we will be found worthy to stand faithful in that day if called upon. The Christian life is a holy vow and a blood covenant which includes a devotion to not only surrender our will and live for God but to be prepared to face persecution unto death. Following Christ has very little to do with prosperity and blessings but rather has everything to do with prayer, holiness, love, faith, integrity, courage, sacrificial giving, renewing of the mind, and self-discipline. Yes, God’s people are the light holders and vessels of honor in this realm of darkness and have been commissioned to evangelize the world. Followers of Christ have the ultimate responsibility to speak God’s Word everywhere and to every person, they meet.
“I have fought the good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them that love His appearing” (II Timothy 4:7-8).
God’s idea is for all of His children to be a minister and to serve Him and the world as a lifestyle of love. The world is a cruel and harsh environment and the Christian remnant followers are facing a growing hostility. However, even in times of severe persecution, we will embrace the example of Christ and remember his commands to be led by his Spirit and not our human nature. Humility allows his servants to walk through the storms and stand strong in adversity because they are seeing the bigger picture of life and how this journey is not based on their feelings. When we remove our vision away from spiritual love, we blindfold our own heart with emotional deception. “And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap if we faint not. As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith” (Galatians 6:9-10). “Lord, help me to become more discerning of the needs of others. Allow me to have compassion for those who are seeking your wisdom and understanding. Give me a burden and a passion to live a “lifestyle of worship” before the world that someone might be inspired to know you. I ask for a greater spiritual sensitivity as that I can hear your voice and with your grace, I pray that you will be able to use me in your divine appointments. Remind me when I begin to drift away from being dependent on your anointing. Convict my heart when carnal pride tries to deceive me. I desperately need your wisdom. Help me to stay focused on you, to stay on my knees and trust you in everything. I love you, Jesus. Amen.”
“And they overcame him [the devil] by the blood of the Lamb [Jesus] and by the word of their testimony, and they loved not their lives unto death” (Revelation 12:11).
The blood of Jesus empowers His saints with the authority of His Name! It is the only power that can forgive us of our sin and save us from eternal death. Our testimony is a declaration of faith that understands who God is, who we are IN Christ and that NOTHING can stop us from accomplishing His will! The Kingdom of God is advancing – because it CANNOT be stopped! Praise Him forever! There is NOTHING that can keep us from being filled with the Holy Spirit except our own free will. Let it be shouted from the housetops that we can have all of God that we want. The problem has always been that most people only want an amount of God that not interfere with the way they choose to live. The war of evil and good is between the human will and the will of God.
God’s nature is love and nothing can conquer love. This is not just a catch phrase but is crucially important to remember when we are walking through difficult places that are filled with discouragements and disappointments. For the remnant disciple, one of the greatest lessons to learn and stay aware of after we have been knocked to the ground is the determination and courage to get up and dust ourselves off and keep going. The enemy has spent the last 6000 years trying to distract men and women away from God’s will, but the joy of the Lord is a fountain of strength that cannot be quenched! All of the darkness in existence cannot overcome one tiny lit candle, and all of the hate in the universe cannot outweigh one act of genuine compassion! Love IS the authority of God and will never fail and when we learn how to encourage our own hearts, we can take another step into the maturity process of being an overcomer for Christ.
Remember the story found in I Samuel chapter 30 about David and his army when they returned home to Ziklag and found the city had been burned and all of their families had been taken captive by the Amalekites. Verse 4 says, “Then David and all the people that were with him lifted up their voice and wept until they had no more power to weep.” But notice in the last part of verse 6, “but David encouraged [strengthened] himself in the Lord his God.” The ones that are involved with ministering God’s Kingdom will not always feel like standing strong or being electrified with an overflowing current of excitement and enthusiasm. There will be seasons of frustration and fatigue where it seems that nothing is happening and things are coming unraveled. But these are the times when we need to have a private consultation in front of the mirror and lay down God’s law to our own will! We have the CHOICE to believe the truth or embrace a deception.
It’s true, there are times when we are sad and frustrated and we all will have problems and situations that we must deal with in this life, but thank God that He is always there as a safe haven to give us encouragement and support that can help us through our times of sorrow. Yes, the battle is very difficult and we must be sensitive to the spirits of depression or oppressive, critical, and judgmental attitudes that are like a contagious virus that can infect others with hopelessness and drain the atmosphere of expectation. In I John chapter 1, verse 4 we see that joy is like a liquid in a tank that can run low or be filled and it is necessary to constantly monitor our joy and protect it from being diminished. “And these things write we unto you, that your joy may be full.” If the general of an army told the soldiers they did not have a chance to win the battle, it would exhaust their strength and crush their faith before they even started. So how do we stay filled with joy? It would definitely contribute to our joy tank if we would deliberately spend more time in His presence. Nothing can take the place of simply thinking about Him and sharing our concerns and feelings with Him.
I believe we can agree that the spiritual strength of the individual is based on the fullness of joy within the heart. Without a strong personal relationship with God, there is limited joy, and with low joy, there is a mediocre interest in walking with Him. So, we can say the stronger our relationship with Him, the more full our joy will be and the more He can and will be seen within us. As believers in the full gospel, we must realize that God’s idea of a normal Christian life is for us to be fearless warriors that daily walk in the realm of signs and wonders. The Creator of the universe lives inside of us! Why should we NOT be doing what Jesus did? God’s Word reveals how the last days are going to unfold and how religious spirits will continue to distort the true reality of “normal” into an imposter normal. Nonetheless, no matter how deceptive or hypocritical the religious system becomes, Jesus will accomplish His perfect agenda with those who love Him! When Jesus calls you to let go of the boat and walk on the water, there is NOTHING that can prevent your victory as long as you stay focused on His presence! Amen!
Even Satan does not care if we accept Christ as long as we keep Him to ourselves, because when we live as undercover agents for Jesus, we are NOT a threat to the dark domain. However, when we allow our flame to receive more oxygen from the Holy Spirit and it turns into a raging blaze, the devil realizes that we can be used to help recruit thousands of soldiers for the Lord’s army, tear down principalities and strongholds, inspire the lost, and do mighty miracles and wonders in Jesus Name! It’s worth the moment to consider the question; will you allow the enemy to stop you from being an overcomer? We are living in the last moments of grace, but it is also a time to become strong in our faith and personal intimacy with the Lord. Overcomers are strong leaders that have Special Forces training to PRAY and OBEY in all circumstances! Prepare now to step forward when the world is turned upside-down. Allow Jesus Christ to fill you with the wisdom of His Word today, or you will not have the anointing or faith to boldly stand as a leader in the days ahead.
If we are going to be provided for like Elijah at the brook and the woman with the measure of oil, we must learn how to not only be an encouragement to others but to encourage our own hearts. If we cannot believe God to heal our sore toe today, what makes us think we will be able to believe Him for a loaf of bread in the day of famine? There is no reason to be stressed or worried about what man will do because we have been promised that direction and encouragement will be given to those who are devoted to God. “The Lord is near unto all them that call upon Him, to all that call upon Him in truth. He will fulfill the desire of them that fear Him: He also will hear their cry and will save them” (Psalm 18-19). The word of the Lord today is that He is trying to get our attention. He is doing everything He can to open the eyes of our hearts so that we can learn how to live for Him. What will it take for us to become serious about our relationship with God? What will it take to pull us away from our flesh and the pleasures of this world and convict us to humbly fall on our face to God?
Our mind is like a garden and we are the gardener. We can plant whatever we want and will harvest whatever we have sown! Our new spirit and renewed mind are ready to listen to King Jesus as He inspires us to confess out loud His never failing truth over ourselves, our families and our situations. This is only accomplished when we develop a serious awareness of our thought life and how powerful our confessions can be. You see, the old nature is associated with the old way of thinking but when our minds have been renewed in Christ, this is intended to give us better leverage when trying to wrestle our will into its rightful place (which is submission to Jesus). The reason why people do not want to pray is that they realize God is going to ask them to surrender their will and become a living sacrifice for His glory.
People want all the blessings in this life but do not want to live for God in order to enjoy them. A covenant is an agreement between two parties and humans desire to be the receiver without being the giver. The idea is that God gives everything to us and likewise we are to give everything back to Him which includes our will. Our good works will mean nothing until we have yielded and submitted our nature to God’s perfect plan. We can demand and command all we want, but until this structure of order has been established, the spiritual process of covenant salvation will not function properly. We can take the safe path of least resistance where we just hold our shields, play defense, and do enough to get by, or we can face our fears of being uncomfortable, take a stand of faith, pick up our swords, and go on the offense. Righteousness and redemption are not about religion – it’s about loving and worshiping God with ALL of our heart and this includes praying, listening, and obeying His voice in all things.
Faith and joy are not confined to a geographic location, a mood, or an emotion – it is activated when the determination to believe God becomes stronger than the temptation to doubt Him! We have a CHOICE to praise God because we love Him and trust Him! The Lord knows that if we can maintain our faith, that in the name of Jesus we can speak to the mountains in our life, and in God’s power and authority they will be removed! “And ALL things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive” (Matthew 21:22). Hopelessness is a condition of the default system that occurs when people only trust their own decisions. Human intellect and logic, impressive education, great wealth, or political power cannot save souls or bring true peace. Only God can change a mind and transform a life.
A character trait of an Overcomer is to carry burdens, but they also learn to leave those burdens at the foot of the cross because they are very heavy and can hinder our liberty to live in joy. May we remember that as servants of the Most-High, ministers and leaders feel the same pain and heartaches that everyone does, and there is no condemnation for being sad and discouraged. It’s not an option but crucial that we all learn how to encourage ourselves and realize the source of our strength. Overcomers learn that qualities like fortitude, perseverance, determination, and integrity are formed and activated in times of great difficulty. God created and owns the heavens and earth and everyone must bow down to His power and authority. “We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed” (II Corinthians 4:8-9).
“Father, I desperately need You to fill me with Your holy PASSION. Make me hungry and thirsty for Your presence, and help me to develop an awareness of Your voice within my heart. If I do not have Your FIRE, I will remain a fading ember and be satisfied to stay in the comfort zone of my old nature. If I do not have Your love working in my conscience, I am nothing but a tinkling cymbal and will not be of any use to You. Break me and melt me so that I can be molded into Your image. Do a strong work in my heart that will literally CHANGE the way I think and who I am. I’m weak and self-centered Lord; please give me compassion and a burden for the lost, the needy and those who are hurting. Awaken me and breathe life into me that I may experience the depths of your presence. Purify me and make me holy in the precious name of Jesus Christ I pray, amen.”
THE CANVAS OF LIFE – (Poem)
I was overwhelmed with emotion as I stood today
In the office of a friend who recently passed away
How much time had he spent there alone?
Visions and ideas that will never be known
Letters and awards proudly declare his name
Pictures and clippings with much more of the same
Labors of passion with a unique expression
Dreams and thoughts from a vivid imagination
Through the years his creativity and wisdom grew
As these walls tell a story that only God really knew
Every frame and phrase a cherished memory
A collection of experiences we call a legacy
It was his identity, the deepest part of his core
But it’s now just piles of clutter with no room to store
As the dust is settling on the desk and shelves
I consider the image we are painting of ourselves
We begin with a fresh canvas, a brand new spirit
Then steadily with our decisions, we proceed to fill it
Eventually, our brush will rest in silence
But what will we leave for a seekers guidance?
Will our masterpiece be remembered in a gallery?
Or was our soul revealed from our personality?
What is the worth of a spiritual obsession?
Or the eternal value for a lifetime of expression?
Will the investment of our journey be thrown away?
Or will it be used somehow to help light the way?
I’m filled with sadness yet desire to learn more
Pondering my own canvas as I slowly close the door